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Give them wings

Give them Wings By Kymberli W. Brady What started as my journal of personal struggle and healing now graces the shelves of bookstores, with the hope of helping others in their grieving process after miscarriage. I have always had a love of the printed word and a passion for writing. But never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would become a published author. And, especially not on the subject of surviving the loss of a child. My journey, if you will, started about five years ago with the loss of my first. A miscarriage, after 2 ½ months. I felt devastated, lost, lonely, sorrowful, angry and completely unprepared. All these emotions hitting at the same time can send one into a tailspin faster than a crash in the stock market. With my head so full of so many emotions, I felt I had to purge some of them and found that putting those emotions on paper was the best way to release and let go of them. My writing became therapy for me. I would spend hours, sometimes days in the little room in the back of the house I call my home office, reliving and releasing those memories and facing each emotion head on. After my third miscarriage, I was truly blessed with a vision so real, had I not been frozen stiff, I would have been able to touch her, this little curly blonde headed angel not two feet in front of me. As she slowly ascended into the cloud that had formed above me, I remember wanting to reach out and pull her back to me, but couldn’t move. As the cloud parted, it revealed her to me again. Only now she had come to sit upon the brawny shoulders of an image (my image) of God himself. As she put her little arm around his neck and lay her head on his, he said “Give her wings and let her fly, just let her go.” This marked the beginning of a new sense of life, death and new life for me. It was at this moment my writing changed. What was full of sorrow and anger had been replaced with feelings of hope and renewed faith. I found myself writing all the time, sometimes unable to keep up with what my head was dictating. Three more miscarriages later, I have found a way to turn tragedy into triumph. “Give Them Wings and Let Them Fly” is the legacy my six babies didn’t get the chance to leave. This book has also motivated me to encourage others to write about their pain and release it to the written page. In addition, my publisher has cleared the way to start a second in the series titled “Give them Wings II, a Collection of Feelings.” This one will house the thoughts of others who have experienced such loss. More importantly I pray it will convince them of the power in transferring the pain in their heads and hearts to its new home, a piece of paper. I feel that my life mission (second only to my family) is to help others to cry, to talk, to write and to heal. To see death as a new life that we are just not a part of yet. To live each moment in what is, not what could have been. I can’t thank my husband John enough for his constant love and support, and for letting me comfort him when he wasn’t comforting me. It has helped us both heal together. I realize now more than ever how much Cole, my one little “angel on earth” is a true miracle. He continues to teach me on a daily basis what life is really all about. My prayer is “Lord, today I sent my baby to you. Please give her wings and let her fly.” About the author: Kymberli W. Brady, a Los Angeles native, now lives in San Jose, California with her husband John, and their six year old son, Cole. For more information about her book “Give Them Wings and Let Them Fly”, go to www.givethemwings.com or send your emails and submissions for “Give Them Wings II” to letthemfly@aol.com. She can also be reached by phone at 408.323.9770. © 2001 Siliconmom

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